wagons...

It's been awhile, I know, and I apologize. April was a tough, tough month. I fell off every wagon there was to fall off and nearly destroyed myself in the process. As my schedule filled up so much that I could barely breathe, caring for myself became my last priority. I stuffed my face with junk - sugar, caffeine, dairy, processed and artificial crap, etc - it all went down in copious amounts. It seemed the busier I got, the less I cared and not surprisingly, I started paying for it. Why is it that we sabotage ourselves exactly when we need to be cared for the most?

To make matters worse, the busier I got, the lonelier I felt. Despite being surrounded by people I love, and having a blast many times over, I felt less and less connected to the world - like it was me up against everything and everyone else. There were tears for no reason, stomach illnesses, headaches and heartaches... April was a tough, tough month.

So what happens after you've fallen off the wagon? Well, as I see it, my options are to let myself fall even further, an option which does not seem very appealing, or to dust myself off and get right back on. So May is Maya month and taking care of myself is top priority because when I don't take care of myself, I'm useless to everyone else.

Before I end, I leave you with two of my favourite moments from the last week:

At one of my best friend's wedding, with my lovely ladies.

With my beautiful pseudo step sister at her wedding shower.

Thanks for stopping by... happier posts to follow!!

mxo